Today was my first day back at work after Ian returned downrange. It was nice to be back because it made the day go by quickly, but we are back to trying to align schedules again in order to talk. It is something that we again have to get used to and have to work on perfecting again. I spoke to Ian first thing this morning and it was nice to start my day off talking to him. The day went well, all in all, but my son was still not feeling well which meant he was home with my dad and I had to take him to the doctor's after work. He won't be able to go to school tomorrow either, but hopefully will be able to recover and go back to school Monday.
While on the way home from the doctor's office, my husband sent me a text asking me to get on Skype. I called my dad and asked him to have the girls get my laptop and get on with Ian. I made it home about 5 minutes later, and we all got to talk to Ian before bed. It was nice for all of us and the kids like feeling connected to him, especially during the week when they haven't usually been able to talk to him.
So, here I am, up later than I need to be. It is too quiet and I need to have background noise to keep my sane. I hat the feeling of my empty bed and too quiet room. I miss hearing his light snore and knowing he is right there with me. I know I will get better with it, but also know it will take time. Just like when he left the first time, it took me a few months to get used to sleeping alone. I hope it doesn't take that long this time, but we will have to see. The one thing I do have going for me this time is that I have my job that requires me to get some sleep and be able to function as well as my kids that need me to function for them. It is always nice to have something that forces you to keep living, even when you feel like staying in bed all day.
Taking it one day at a time, one step at a time.
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