Today has been one of those days where it would have been really nice if my husband was home. Luckily, I was able to talk to him over Skype and have him talk to our daughter who was giving me issues. It helped that I got to step back and take a deep breath. I am still not in the best mood, but glad he was able to step in, despite being so far away. It is again another reason why I love technology.
Even though it has been a hard night I try to remain optimistic. Today is day 252. Moving as I have, one day at a time, I am working my way through this year-long deployment we are in. Some days are good, some not so much. No matter what, though, I know this is something I can't just quit. I can't just walk away from it. I can't just say that I am done with it and bring my husband home. It is something I have to see through until he does his time downrange. I will do it, but some days I am better at than others.
Despite the fact that this has been/is one of the hardest years in my life, it has and continues to be a year of growth. It will be a year where we faced adversity and overcame it. It will be a year of transformation and change for all of us. None of us will come out of this deployment the same as we went in... Then again, that is not always a bad thing. We could be coming out of it in better shape than when we went into it. I know that it doesn't always work out that way, but I hope it does. I hope I can say that I learned a lot about myself, about my husband, and about our marriage. I hope I can say that I came out of this deployment stronger than when I went into it. I hope I can say all that, but only time will tell.
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