Today was a rough day for me. A day where I couldn't stop thinking about Ian and about how much I miss him. I wasn't feeling good the whole day at work and then after work, the kids were rambunctious and ornery. When we went to golf lessons, the people running it did not call me to tell me they moved it. So, we went to the golf course, got out, and walked around trying to find everyone. Then went to the pro-shop and they called around for me and found out they moved it. By the time we got there, the kids missed half. So, that didn't help my mood at all. To top it off, I had to talk to the girls a few times at practice to participate.
Yup, another day in paradise. We got home and I got the kids ready for bed. Then, Ian called me on Skype and we both talked about our day. I couldn't help it, I got a little misty-eyed while we talked. I had been missing him and thinking about him all day. Seeing his face and hearing his voice caused the emotion to overtake me. I cried because I was happy to hear his voice and because I missed him. I cried because I knew I had another night ahead of me with an empty bed. He saw my tears and immediately understood their origin, without needing to ask. He just sat there and told me how much he loved me and missed me. He asked me what, specifically, was wrong. I just told him it was one of those days where I missed him and wanted him home. I loved him for allowing me to have that minor breakdown with him, and comforting me through it. We both looked at each other and smiled and said how close we are and how many days we have less. It still seems far away, but when you look at where we were when he was home on R&R, it really isn't as far as that. We at least have that. We can see that we are making headway and it is always something positive that helps us on "one of those days."
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