Day 268: Pleasantly misinformed

I was upset last night because I was told that a soldier I knew had died yesterday. I was told by a friend who was close to him and believed her. It wasn't her fault, she was told by a "reputable source." Come to find out this morning that he is just fine! It made my day to hear it. I was slightly perturbed that we were misinformed, but the happiness that the information was wrong greatly outweighed any other feelings.

I am a mostly "seasoned" army wife. My husband has been in the military for over 8 years, and I have been by his side every step of the way. I learned early to avoid rumor mills, and for the most part do well at it. I don't consider it a rumor mill with what happened yesterday, I think it was honest misinformation. It wasn't gossip or what-ifs. It was an honest mistake, a big mistake, but an honest one. I normally wouldn't have written anything like I did last night until I was able to verify it, but I was so overwhelmed that I wrote about it. Even though the news was wrong, the feelings there were not. I am beyond happy that the soldier is doing well and is still on the road to recovery, but I still feel the urge to have my husband home in my arms. I still want to hold him tight and hug him with all the strength in my arms. I am still lonely and still sad that he is away. I still, in my heart, wish he were home with me, though I know in my mind that this is his duty to be in Afghanistan and that he will come home when his tour is done. I know it is my duty to hold on and wait for him. It is my duty to support him from here and hold down the homefront for him. I
 know no amount of wishing will bring him home any sooner, so I will just have to be patient and keep my prayers going for his safe return.

For those of my friends and family whom I worried, I apologize. I did not mean to worry you all and I hope you all know that if it was anything that I couldn't handle or anything that was personal, I would have contacted you directly. Thank you for caring about me and thank you for those of you who checked on me today to see if I was okay. I love you all for that.