12/19/2011
Today was a kind of laid back, yet busy day. I got to talk to Ian this morning, since the kids and I aren't in school. It was quite a cool thing. We weren't worried about the schedule of my lunch break and were able to talk for a while. After that, we worked on getting a few things done, like cards and homemade gifts. For dinner my friends and their kids came over and we got to hang out again. It is always a fun time when our families get together.
I am sitting here tonight, wondering why I am so tired. I feel like I just can't seem to get to bed at a normal time anymore and that I need to stay up later and later just to get some peace of mind. I know that even when Ian was home, the time between when the kids went to bed and when I went to bed was my mom time. It was the time I used to decompress from the day and take a deep breath. With everything, it feels like no matter how early I send the kids to bed and how late I stay up, it is not enough time for me. It always feels like I have not had any real time to myself. I still feel stressed. So, I am going to try something new this week. I am going to try and see if getting myself to bed earlier helps out with this. I am not sure how this is going to work, but we will see.
Another day down, another day closer to seeing him.
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