Day 92: Waiting game

Today is the 3 month mark. It has been three months since I hugged and kissed my husband, told him I loved him and "see you later," and sent him off to war. I have to say that it has gone by faster than I thought it would, for the most part. You know I have said that some days it seems to take forever and others it is flying by. The summer dragged, but now that the kids are in school and I am working, it is starting to pick up.

I think the part about deployments that really drags are the times where you are waiting. You know your husband is out and you don't know how long that will be for. So, you wait. You wait for a phone call or email from your husband telling you he is back. You are always worried, but when he is out, you worry even more. The term "no news is good news" is the motto of which you live your life. It is an agonizing waiting game because a lot of the times, you don't even know it started. My husband can't tell me when he is leaving or when he is going to come back, so I have to assume when I don't hear from him at normal intervals, that he is gone. Then the waiting game starts. My heart skips a beat when my phone rings and I see "unknown" or a weird phone number on my phone. Then, I answer it only to find out that it isn't my husband and the waiting starts all over again. This is the time that we, as Army wives, have to stay busy. That is just what I do when my waiting game starts, but, to be honest, it doesn't make it much easier. It just makes me more worried about carrying around my phone because I don't know when he is going to call. I am not complaining, it is just a fact of life for me right now and that is okay because it just shows that I care and am proud to sit behind and wait for my husband to do his job and come home to me.

Working as a sub has been good for me so far. The main drawback is the fact that I am not as available for phone calls as I used to be, which sucks. It is okay though, because I can't stop living life. Hopefully we will be able to work around our schedules and the time difference to be able to talk more often. If not, we will have to work even harder at writing emails.

Another day, another dollar... or in my case, another one done.