Today was a good day. I have been pushing myself hard lately with all of the new things I am doing like my job and class. So, today, I had a half day at work and I told my dad last night that I would be able to take care of the kids and take them to school in the morning. My dad, knowing that I am exhausted, allowed me to sleep in a little bit and took the kids to school. I was reluctant, but decided to let him help me. It did help me a lot because I woke up with a major headache and needed time to rest and get rid of that headache before I had to go to work.
These upcoming 4 weeks I am going to have to rely even more on my support system I have around me more than I have EVER had to before in my life. I have my dad here for me, which will be the biggest help, but I am also realizing that I will have to rely on all of my support group in times when my dad just isn't able to help. For someone like me, someone who is relatively strong and proud almost to a fault, it is really hard to ask for help and admit my weaknesses. My schedule between working and school is going to allow me maybe 3-4 hours of sleep a night, at least 4 nights out of the week and I am going to be exhausted and will have to focus all of my spare time on homework. So, this is a time that I have to start swallowing my pride and allowing someone other than my husband help me out, especially when I hit the wall physically.
That will be my goal in the next few weeks, to admit that I can't do it all. To admit that I am not a super mom nor am I made of steel. I am strong, but even the strongest Army wife needs help, especially during a deployment.
Another day down and I am another day closer to having my dreams once again become my reality.
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