Today was a busy day and I am seriously exhausted. I am grateful that I did not have school this week or I would be done. I mostly took on some extra stuff, like two cakes, with the assumption that I had an easy week at work. I was only supposed to work a few half days and one full day. Since I got moved to a full day class for the rest of the week, my prior commitments got a little crazy. In the end though, I got the two cakes done and my dad was my delivery driver.
Today has been a day of reflection. I have really had to think about my main purpose, my priorities, and the things I just like to do, and how I can fit all those in. To add a little more into the mix, I am increasingly getting worse and worse the more I go without talking to Ian, especially when it is because of my being at work. Now, I know I cannot put life on hold and sit around the house all day and wait for his call. I guess I just got used to seeing and talking to him during the day, and I am really starting to miss it. I talk to him off and on, but usually is for maybe 10 minutes at a time. Yes, I have been spoiled with the times I get to talk to him, and I am proud of it. :-)
So, I realized, as I was begging my awesome friend to bake for me last night and as I was sitting here and decorating a cake when I should have been asleep, that I might need to step away from the cake decorating altogether. I do love it. And I will miss it. I just have to focus on my priorities which are my kids, my husband, my work, my class, and sleep. Once things slow down a bit, I might be able to pick up something here and there, but I just have to pick and choose what to do. It sucks, but it is a fact of life, not just for Army wives, but everyone. We all have to choose our priorities and decide what is best for us and/or our families. I think that until I find a full-time teaching job, I am going to have to cut down my sub hours too. I need time to take care of the house, visit the kids at school, talk to my husband, and have some me time. I need that for my own sanity.
The trick is to actually do that. Lets hope I can figure it out. For now, I am another day down and I am another day closer to seeing my husband again.
I had the same realization yesterday as well! I try to do too much and end up not being there for the ones that I love the most... The ones that need me the most! I don't want my children to grow up thinking that everyone else was more important than them. I don't even have time to cook good healthy meals for them! I am definitely re-prioritizing and giving many things in my life a long hard look. SIMPLIFY. That is the word to live by! ~ Karen
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