Not to sound too whiny, but today was a bummer kind of day. Basically I wanted a particular teaching job, but after making all the calls and such, I found out that basically I am two weeks shy of being eligible for that position and there is no way to keep if for me until I become eligible, because I can't "Guarantee" I will pass the test, although, I know I can.
So, yeah, I am bummed because in the short time I have been working with this class, there have already been improvements, and they feel like my students. I guess I just wish Ian was here to talk to about this whole thing and for him to hug me. It is one of the three hardest parts of this deployment for me, needing him to hold me and he can't. The other two are when he needs me and I can't be there for him, and when the kids miss him and he isn't here. Everything else is not as bad, but those three things top my "Deployment Sucks" list.
Upside is that R&R is getting so close now. I cannot wait until he is home again, even if it is for a little while. I just miss him! I am getting closer to it, one day at a time.
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