Day 219: Goodnight Sweetheart

I will admit it, during this deployment, I have been pretty spoiled. For the most part, I have talked to or heard from my husband almost every day. It has been a blessing and has helped us all through this deployment. So, it is really hard when I have to go any length of time without hearing his voice. Tonight is one of those nights. I am really missing him and haven't heard from him yet tonight, and it is one of those nights that I really need to hear his voice. So, I am pulling out all the tricks I have picked up so far. I have old voicemails saved on my cell phone, I have a ton of pictures, a small video of him snoring (yup, did that during R&R.... not that he knows :-)), and putting some of his cologne on his pillow making it extra strong. I also have a shirt of his that he wore before he left to go back from R&R that still has a slight trace of his natural smell... That will be with me tonight, saved up for just such nights.

I know I will get through this, but these nights alone are getting old quick. I hate being lonely, but I know in a way, I am not alone. I have God, my kids, and I know I have an amazing husband who is loving me from 7,000 miles away. Even though he isn't physically here, his love still holds true and can still be felt. It is evident in all the emails, voicemails, pictures, letters, and cards all around my room and home.

So, I go to bed tonight, fighting the loneliness and waiting to make it through yet another night. I know that today is done and I am getting closer. It is the nights I really need to make it through, those seem to be getting harder, while the days have their routines and busy work to help them become easier to pass through.

To my love: the Chorus to "Goodnight Sweetheart" by David Kersh. I know you know and love this song. Tonight I send it to you.

Goodnight sweetheart,
Sleep tight where ever you are
God hold you in His arms while we're apart
Though you're far away
Your love will stay tucked away here in my heart
Goodnight sweetheart
Sleep tight where ever you are