Day 39: Looking forward

I have to admit, I am exhausted. After blogging so late last night, I ended up staying online, just messing around a bit, and then, to my surpirse, my husband came online. I thought it would be something that he was only on for a few minutes and I would only talk to his long enough to tell him hi and I love him. Turns out, he had some extra time on his hands and we got to talk for a long time. I didn't end up going to bed until 3am. My husband said it was crazy that I was staying up so late, but I told him that I was not going to waste any time I can get to talk to him.

This morning, I got up and went to church. I volunteered in the nursery and it was fun. I love holding the babies. After church, the kids and I had lunch and did a small grocery shopping trip. We then came home, relaxed and I made dinner. After dinner we decided to go see "Mr Poppers Penguins" at the theater on post. It was funny and we had a good time watching the movie together.

I have found that during this deployment so far, we have been thinking and talking a lot about the future. We look towards the near future, discussing what is planned for the upcoming week, planning for when the kids start school, and the start of my teaching certification program. We discuss the future that involves us being together again. We are counting the days until R&R (rest and relaxation, for you civilians out there ;-) ). We are excited about it. We discuss even further out. What we will do when he gets home, where we want to settle down when the time comes, what we will do at that time. We can't help but dream. I can't say that we plan, because, you know what they say, man plans, God laughs. So, we dream, we imagine, we eagerly look to what God has in store for us. As our lives stand right now, it is nothing like we had planned when we were younger. It is an amazing life we have right now, our plans were not what was meant to be.

I don't know why this time of deployment makes us think about the future and want to imagine the possibilities ahead of us. Perhaps it is because the present, while being a gift in and of itself simply because we are still on this earth, is a time of separation. The future holds the possibility of reunion and of continuing our life together. I find that most Army wives, in one way or another, always look to the future, while still living in the present. We enjoy the time we have right now with our children, friends, and family, while counting down the days until the future of reunion can be called the present. Ever hopeful, forever faithful, forever strong. Not looking back to the past, but living in the present and for the future.

So here is to the future. One day at a time until the future we look so forward to can be called today. The day of both the short time of reunion for R&R and the day he comes home permanently.