Sunday, August 21, 2011

Day 58: Just another small reason I miss him (posted late)

Today was an interesting day. I started out the day with having to get the kids ready to go to a luncheon for deployed spouses, put on by our housing community. So, I got up, tired as usual from lack of sleep, and got breakfast going. I cleaned up a little, did some laundry, and got he kids dressed for our lunch. I was late getting there, but it wouldn't have mattered anyways, the line for food was insanely long, and getting there 10 minutes earlier would not have changed anything. So, after the luncheon we went home and I got to doing some more chores. I have not been keeping up on my room as well as I should, so I thought I would clean it up a bit. As I am cleaning, I am finding my son's leggos all along Ian's side of the bed. Slowly but surely, he is trying to move into my room. So, I had him come clean up his toys and take them back to his room.

As I am cleaning, I get a call from my best friend. She lives about 3 hours from me and needed my help. So, within 45 minutes, I had the kids packed up, had plans for the dogs to be watched after, and was out the door. It was the first time I have left the area since before Ian left. Lets just say, that driving alone for 3 hours brought to mind just another reason in the 854, 971 reasons that I miss my husband. He keeps me entertained on long trips. He helps to take care of the kids during the long drives. My favorite though, he blocks the sun when it is on the passenger side of the car. As I was driving the sum was setting and it was bright through the passenger side of the windshield. So, I had to reach over and put down the visor on the passenger side, thinking that was something Ian would do. I also love how he tries to block the sun for me whether it is with his hand, a piece of paper, or his head/body.

It is funny how as time is tripping by, I am finding I miss the little things. I miss him in his entirety, but I am reminded of the little things he brings to my life on a daily basis. The best thing, though, is that as I am getting stronger. I am finding that instead of these thoughts making me want to cry, I am remembering them with a smile, knowing that, eventually, he will be home and I will not have to miss the little things anymore. I also know, that when he is home I will think about the little things more often and appreciate the little things that he brings to my life.

Another day is done. My first road trip during this deployment has been accomplished. Just that much sooner to seeing him again.

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