Today was a good, busy day. I got to Skype with my husband and that was AMAZING! I love talking to him. No matter how much or how little we talk, we always have something to say. I hate to brag, but my husband and I have a truly great marriage. He really is my best friend, my safe harbor, and I am his. So, yeah, we had a great talk about everything under the sun. After that, I sat at home and set out a detailed plan of attack for the budget, my grocery list, and the kids' needs. I think it will help me stick to the budget if I do insane details on it. I then went shopping at the PX to buy the kids some nice, sturdy water bottles that they can take to school everyday. The ones they have are dollar store water bottles and they really don't seal up that well. They need water bottles at school, so I didn't mind using some of the spending money to get them decent water bottles. After the PX, I went to the commissary. That was fun! (sarcastic tone implied) Yeah, the commissary on payday, what a mess. You had to bring a cart in from the parking lot because there weren't enough in or around the actual building. Luckily, I survived. I made it through without too much hassle and kept it pretty close to on point with the budget. I then went home, unloaded groceries, and went to pick up the kids from school.
It was a good afternoon with them and after dinner we went to my church's women's bible study. I love being around phenomenal women like them and it is great to have people to pray with you about any worries or concerns you have. It was a great night.
Apparently, I have found out over the past few weeks, that I have rubbed a few people the wrong way. They don't like my blog, my Facebook, me, or a combination of the three. I have told those that have actually came up to me to talk to me about it that I will not apologize for who I am. I am a strong woman. I am an Army wife who is extremely proud and very much in love with her soldier husband. I am a good mother to three wonderful kids who can drive me crazy, but in the end are respectful and loving children. I speak my mind on Facebook and my blog, and even in person if you ask me. I am a woman of God, who loves her Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I praise Him for everything He has given me and I pray often for the safety and well-being of my husband, children, and extended family. I am a good friend to those that are good friends to me. I am respectful and polite even to those who do not afford me the same courtesy. I am a passionate person and a protective one at that. This is me. Love me, hate me, dislike me. That is fine. But I will not apologize for being myself. If/when I have offended someone, I will gladly talk to them about it and will either explain or make amends as the situation calls for. But if you don't like me because I say how much I love and miss my husband, or because I brag about how great my children are, or because I say what I am feeling in my deployment blog, then, sorry, but I will not apologize for being me. I will not change. And I never once told you that you had to read what I write or agree with me. The only thing I ask of anyone who wants to be in my life, is that you just have to accept me. Accept that I am going to rub you the wrong way at least once, because, guess what, that is human nature. I can also gurantee that if you decide that you want to be friends, I can be a pretty awesome friend. If you don't want to be friends, that is ok too. It is your loss not mine.
I am just tired of people expecting me to apologize for being myself and for sharing my thoughts and feelings in various different forums. I don't mean to rant, but I am done being told that I write about missing my husband too much. That I need to dial back my feelings, fears, concerns, elation, etc. I just won't do it and I won't apologize for it. I am Army WIFE strong, and I can handle a few complaints.
Another day is done. I am now another day closer to seeing my husband again.
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